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I still hate my job. It has made me a bitter, hateful person. I do ridiculous work. I have gone to school for 6 years to do a job a high schooler could easily do. I have applied for countless jobs and have had no success. What am I doing wrong? I did everything I was told in college, and I thought excelled. I had almost a 4.0 gpa through undergrad and graduate studies. I have completed internships and was active in the community. I have fundraised and danced for 24 hours. I played golf for PSU and played well. I was a four-year starter and Academic All-American all four years. I received a graduate assistantship and worked hard at WVU. Do I need to suck up more? Do I need to be more pushy? WHAT IS IT? I can not do what I am doing anymore. It is so stupid. I get paid nothing. I mean nothing. I have worked over three weeks on a new program and will have to come in before and after work to do it and will not be paid. Nothing. I have never ever wanted to be a personal trainer and that is what I am doing. I was told I would be working and developing all these great programs and that is bullshit. Nothing. I have to worry about getting more personal training. I am sorry. Personal training is not going to be successful in Fairmont, WV. There is not a huge demand. Anyway, why would I want to push personal training why you are not going to pay me for it. I am not a pond to make you more money. That is sick. Also, I hate it here. It is not home for me. I want to get out and it will not let me. Let me out with a job I like. Give me a chance. Where I work is so belittling it is sick. I am going to go to work to sit, clean machines, and put out towels. What the hell? I did not work through school to do that. I would not care to do some manual labor if I had some mind tasking work to do otherwise. I HATE THE HEALTHPLEX!!!!! I will never ever like working for it ever. The owners and general managers are the only ones who benefit. However, they do not know the members and except the Fairmont, WV is like Chicago or Pittsburgh. No way is it like any of those cities. Also, I have no experience gaining experience from my current job to put on my resume to help me to a better job. In interviews I have to stretch the truth to help me sound more marketable. So in reality this job is hurting me for getting another job. I would like to quit but I have to have some money to pay bills. This sucks and I hate every minute. I wear a ugly blue wind suit everyday. It is blue and ugly. I look like a blueberry. I want to wear clothes and care how I look. I have no reason to try to look okay. I look like shit. I really do. I do not care. I never do my hair or put makeup on. I have no desire to work hard or to work at all. I just go to make sure I have a pay check. I have put out over 50 resume and cover letters in the last three days and I have not had any response. I know I have to give it awhile but I need something now. My current job is making me sick. I hate my job. I hate my job. I hate my job. I know I am not the first person to hate my job but it is getting worse everyday. I am so tired of hearing it will get better. I have been hearing that for two years and I still at nothing. I want more. To get more you have to get out there and no something. I have been doing something. I have been sending e-mails, calling, and writing letters for a new job and still nothing. WHAT DO I NEED TO DO? Do not say I am a smart girl and you will get something. Well being smart landed me at my current hateful awful job. Major in something you like...well do not. I thought I picked a major I liked but I ended up with jobs I hate. Sometimes when I tell people I have a master's degree, I get weird looks. Like this is what you do? You clean machines. Yes this is what I do. Apparently this is the only thing I am qualified for. I HATE MY JOB. I have done job interviews. At the end when I ask what can I do better this is what I hear: "You are a great girl and you will get a job in this field soon. Keep looking and it will come. However, we when with someone more qualified." UMMMMM....no. I can't get more qualified because no one will give me a chance and I am not getting anything here at the HealthPlex. I can't do this anymore going in everyday to smile and act like I working with you. Also, they are no longer buying tissues for the HealthPlex. So you cannot blow your nose all day. Just let your nose run all over the place. Let's try to cut cost by not ordering tissues but get a new door for the back so it does not close as loud. Just close the door like always and BUY TISSUES. Someone pooped in the elevator. Pooped in an elevator and then never said anything. Then we are the ones to clean it up. Hire a cleaning crew. I did not and will not ever clean up poop. I work stupid hours. I never start at the same time and work late almost ever night. I also have to work Sundays. Other people have had their schedules changed but now when I ask it won't work because there has to be someone there. If you are going to redo the schedule talk to everyone and work on a compromise. Most of us do not like our schedules. I can never play golf because I have the dumbest hours. Also, everyone is looking for new jobs and not getting anything. A good sign that the HealthPlex sucks and will lead to nothing. I want a new Job. I hate my job. Every day I leave work in a bad mood. I am looking for jobs outside of health and wellness but what am I qualified for? Nothing apparently. I HATE MY JOB. I HATE MY JOB. The new general manager is horrible. One of my good friends put in her two weeks notice because he treats her terribly. I do not want to work with someone who treats others with such little respect. He does not even try to know the members. I hate my job. I hate my job. 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I needed a good weekend with friends

This weekend was so much fun. Just what the doctor ordered. I miss Penn State so much. I got to spend a nice weekend with some of my old teammates. I also go to meet up with some old friends. Even though Penn State was unable to beat Ohio State, I was on cloud nine. There are too many stories, and a lot are not appropriate for a blog. I just loved having a good weekend of fun.

Now that I am back to reality I am wishing I was still away. I have not had a workout since last Thursday. I cannot believe I have not worked out for four days. That is too long. I feel sluggish and yucky. I just did not have the energy to move today.

I am still looking for a new job. Nothing seems to be coming up but I hope that changes. I did apply to get my Doctorate in Public Health. I sent the application in last week. I am just waiting for two more reference letters and a transcript to come in and the application can be sent away. I only applied at the University of Pittsburgh. I want to be a college professor. I just really want to be accepted to the program. It is so weird to be applying and worry about if I will get in or not. I have not wanted to go to a program like this since I was in high school. Pitt is definitely not Penn State but I really like this program. I still have to get an interview but I just want the application to be in and done. Wish me luck.

I hate my Job. i had a busy weekend.

I am having a day where I need to stay...I hate my job. It is such a degrading job and I want out. That is it for now.

I had a busy weekend. I went to Pittsburgh on Friday night to Fright Night at Kennywood. It was such a beautiful night. I rode some roller coasters and visited some haunted houses. I learned that I am a true weeny. I screamed and yelled in all the right places. It was a lot of fun. I also got to eat some P.F. Chang's. Can't beat some good food.

Last night was Halloween. I went out for the first time in a long time. I dressed up as a devil in a blue dress. I had two drinks and got to visit with some great friends. It was a nice night. I love seeing all the crazy costume ideas and how little some girls where out. Just because you can wear next to nothing does not mean you should wear next to nothing. Finally, I enjoyed some Eat n' Park at the end of the night. I love food.

Today was a long day. I had to work at a job I hate. I also am very worn out from my whole weekend. I need to get through this week because I get to go visit Penn State weekend. We are...Penn State. I am going to the Penn State vs. Ohio State football game. I also get to visit and see some friends I have not seen in a while.